That’s happened to me too.
And that’s how I started to recognize that he is my twin flame — because the attraction is beyond words.
For a year, I’ve been honestly living this the way it is. Gave in to the attraction and handled it on my own. On the so-called 5D we have a beautiful union and even a “wedding”…
However, at some point there was a shift and I asked myself — do I want to continue living only in 5D fantasies, or do I love myself more, to claim the happiness in 3D?
The 5D stage is the right spiritual practice to open the one’s heart, but then it risks becoming a delayed life syndrome.
And then very quickly, literally within a month my masochistic chemistry was over, and I felt I was no longer attracted to a man who in the 3D world pretends I don’t exist. I need all or nothing.
For the first time ever, I didn’t want to look at him or search him in a crowd, and instead I felt so much compassion to myself and to my feelings.
No, I haven’t fallen out of love with him. He just doesn’t yet represent the version of himself that makes me happier than when I’m without him. So what’s the point of me triggering my own emotional chemistry by thinking of him? It didn’t make sense anymore.
And it’s finally not about the “I’ll ignore you to spite you” reaction (I’ve done that many times and always fallen back on old patterns).
It is literally a change in body’s chemistry that happens in it’s own timing if we have enough patience to stay in that purging process and surrender to what comes, without losing compassion to ourselves…
I used to be drawn to that unhealthy patterns, and now I’m not. It’s just ended. That’s what I recognize as healing.
I still can cry a lot, but I lose the strength to fight my discomfort or run away from it, or deny it. So for now I can only stay in it and suddenly it turns out it is possible to live with it… And there’s a lot of hidden sexual energy that can be used as a creative fuel…
And the rest is really up to God.