This year, I did not make any resolution, but I did make a confession/prayer that I did share on my FB profile about a week before New Year - see below.
Since only my family, close friends and coworkers know about my twin flames journey, the things I share on FB do not mention it. Important to note that I have all my twin’s family (but not my twin/wife) in my FB friends, so I need to be careful with terms for now until I can speak twin flames with my wife directly. But I do share my thoughts and feelings on FB with no shame or anything. I have always spoke my heart and my mind freely, no matter what people may think. Funny thing though - my twin’s family (who are still legally my family-in-law) are completely silent with me since she ran way, but I know it’s because they are just waiting. Absolutely everybody around us believe we should be together till death do us part. So the silent from them is an agreement, somehow.
Also, I did not make resolutions, but I do plan to keep moving forward and further my own path, and nourishing this newly found feeling of inner peace. I also do believe my twin is about to reach out (the energies seem to have completely switched with the New Year, and she seems to be very determined to come back to me to save our marriage and rebuild on our “Me, You, Us” balance in unconditional love. She just needs to feel… readier… and she should contact me soon. Fingers crossed I am right about this !).
End of Year Confessions
Another year coming to an end…
2023 and 2024 were what I would qualify as the most challenging years of my life. Through all the pain, the heartache, and the spiritual slap in the face, I am although very grateful for the opportunity to grow faster and stronger than I would have ever thought possible before. I had to fall very hard (and very suddenly) to the ground to embark on a journey that would change absolutely everything about my perceptions of love, of connections, of life and of spirituality, and in turn, push me to reach the very best version of me in the most authentic way, driven by an unshakeable conviction deeply rooted in my soul.
I am grateful for all the lessons, for all the knowledge and for all the wisdom and maturity I have gained throughout those two very difficult years. I gave it my all - heart, mind and soul. I’ve been challenged emotionally, mentally and spiritually in ways I believe very few will ever experience in their lifetime, that I am sure of. There are so many layers to what I experienced and still experience, and so many things most will never comprehend. But in this very solitary road, I have finally found my inner peace and I now stand stronger than ever on my very own ground.
But now, I need a break, a real change, a new beginning. So please, universe, it is time for the tables to turn and reciprocate what I so abundantly and continuously give out for the sake of love, in all its forms. You’ve got yourself a real fighter for love, a lightworker with a very strong will, a compassionate healer that will never ever give up, that will always choose love against all odds and spread it around her in all ways she possibly can. I will not beg nor complain nor play the victim, but, universe, we both know I really deserve a better and more abundant year.
So for the next week, I am closing 2024 with gratefulness despite everything, and I am slowly welcoming 2025 with hopes for better days.
The only request I’ll word out, is that I want my heart to be allowed to go home to the one person that matters the most to me, to the one person that gives sense to everything else in this universe of mine, especially to the concepts of family, marriage, connection and true love. Everything else is secondary to me, and I wish with all of my heart and all of my soul for the universe to answer this one prayer. And if she does not yet understand how she still means everything to me, that she is still my favorite person in this world, well, here is my truth anyways, as I am not moving and I do not hide : I simply want nothing else - I just want my heart to go home to hers where it can freely vibrate to its purest frequency of unconditional love, and where it truly belongs.
So, 2025, just please bring this heart back home, that’s all I’m asking.