It’s hard to believe that we haven’t seen each other in over a year. This year has been difficult without you in my life. I miss you so much. I miss your eyes, your smile and your laugh. I miss talking to you and I miss our deep conversations. Most of all, I miss the way you made me feel. You always made me feel so happy. Even if I was having a bad day, you always knew what to say to make me feel better. You were the sunshine on my cloudy days.
I loved working with you. We planned some pretty amazing events together. We were great team and I miss that. This year was not the same without you. I know you are doing such a great job in your new position but selfishly I wish we were still working together. I am so happy for you that you finally found your dream job.
Even though I haven’t seen you in a whole year, I still feel connected to you. Everything I do reminds me of you. I often think about how you would handle a situation before moving forward. I learned so much from you and you helped me become a better person. Thank you for all you taught me. Our friendship was special and I am so thankful for the time we did spend together. I will forever be grateful for you and all that I learned from you. I loved our friendship. I wish that we could have stayed friends but understand that is just not possible right now. It was such a weird situation and I hate the way things ended so abruptly. Even though it was a mutual decision, it was really hard on me and I felt so hurt when the silence began. The silence killed me. It was so hard to go from talking everyday to not talking at all. I lost my best friend and it hurt so bad. You meant so much to me, so when you were gone all of a sudden, I was crushed. I’ve tried to move on however, it has been impossible to let you go. Everything I do reminds me of you. Everywhere I go, I hear your name, see the number 41 or see your doppelgänger twin. No matter how much I try to move on, something always brings me back to thinking of you. I know our connection is special and I know that we will always be connected even if we do not see each other. I wish that we could have stayed friends but I understand that a close friendship is just not possible right now. What we shared was special and the feelings were very real to me. When I told you I loved you, I meant it. I did love you and will always love you no matter what happens. You will always have a special place in my heart.
Although the current silence is killing me, I understand why it has to be this way for now. I hope that someday we will meet again. But until that day, I wish you all the best.
Write a letter to them and send it out ! I did and I feel good about it, although I didn’t get a response yet lol. It just helped me get my feelings out. Good luck on the journey though it’s not an easy one !
Thank you @ChrisGonz05 ! I actually wrote this letter a few months ago and I thought about sending it to my twin but then I changed my mind and never sent it. I typed the letter here, hoping that it would help me release my feelings. After I typed it, I ripped up my handwritten letter and threw it in the garbage. I’m trying to surrender and trust divine timing. I’m not sure if this was the right thing to do but it felt good to rip up the letter.
good luck to you, I hope your twin writes you back. Keep me Posted.
This is such a beautiful, raw and honest letter. I hope writing it here helped you release some of those feelings you are holding in your heart.
I can empathize with the way you feel. I wrote a letter to my Twin in July, unsure if I wanted to send it or not. But after writing it, I felt a weight being lifted off my shoulders, and decided not to send it to him in the end. Writing it was more for me, than for him to read. It was cathartic.
I am at a similar point of my journey: Surrender and trusting divine timing. Oddly enough these last few months, the silent hum of his presence in my mind and heart no longer cause me intense pain and trigger breakdowns. It’s sort of become like a little boat bobbing over waves out at sea. It’s not quite peaceful, but calming in a way.
Keep us updated if anything progresses in your journey. Sending you lots of love.
Thank you so much @eunichick You are so sweet. I agree, the letter was more for me than him. Last week I did text my twin with a work related question and he responded right away but nothing else was said besides work stuff. We haven’t talked on the phone since December. Since then our only very few interactions have been via text or email with work related things. I’ve texted personal stuff a few times about how I missed him and I’m here if he wants to talk but have only been met with silence. if I did send this letter, I’m sure all I would get is silence in return, so I’m keeping things professional for now until he’s ready to talk for real.
However, Like you, I do feel more at peace and trust the universe. The signs I receive on a daily basis help me feel at peace. I know that someday we will be together again when the time is right. For now I’m continuing to focus on improving myself by exercising, doing yoga, eating better, doing meditation, reducing alcohol, protecting my peace, spending more time outside and spending more time with friends.
I’m so glad you are feeling at peace too. It’s a good feeling. Wishing you all the best!! Keep me posted.
