Current seperation

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It’s been a month now, that we dont talk anymore,
I remember the last day, in morning he called and woke me up, we started talking like always, a conversation full of positivity,
At night, he got back from work
He said he wants to say goodbye! Cause we cant do this anymore and we are different.
Why that happened?
Everything was beautiful and filled with love
Sometimes i wonder, did he ever feel anything? At all , or he was pretending,

But i have to say, i had doubt of continuing our relationship, my mind said its wrong but my heart couldnt let go
It still cant!
It’s like im attached, and i cant get over him, no matter what he does, makes me upset, breaks my heart..
I feel him all over me
Sometimes i feel his presense
When we were together i always felt him before texting, like i knew already
God i miss waking up, and having a notification from him

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If I can give you a hug right now, I definitely do that. I know you’re sad, But what you truly need right now is taking care of yourself. Do anything that make yourself in a better and lighter mood. Please, don’t say that he is the only one that make you happy. You have to find it from within, and it’s need time of course. Take your time.

DM tend to do that, leaving suddenly without word. Today, we could be a lovey-dovey partner, chatting, cuddling, like there is nothing could gone wrong. The next day, they gone cold, distant, somehow angry like every mistakes in this world is our fault, then they disappeared.

And, I’ll say that’s not your fault, don’t take it too deep into your heart. I could say that the DM leaving is kinda normal occurrence. It’s hard of course and dreadful for the one who being left. Please, take this time for you to feel your emotion, process it and let it pass by you. If you need some outlet to vent, find it, then vent your emotion, after that you could release it.

You don’t have to jump to anything right at this moment. Any work, spiritually or not could wait. Take this time to rest and process your emotion. When everything naturally passed by, you’ll understand that this silence period is a blessing for you.

Take care :head_shaking_vertically:

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Thank you!:sparkles:
I’m actually trying so hard to focus on my own life

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What you’re experiencing is deeply understood by so many in this community.

The way you describe still feeling him… twin flames share an energetic connection that doesn’t simply disappear when physical contact ends.

When you ask if he ever felt anything, I believe he did.

The very intensity of what exists between twin flames is often what triggers the running. Sometimes people retreat precisely because they feel too much, not too little. That overwhelming soul recognition can be frightening for someone not ready to face it.

Your inner conflict makes perfect sense too - that battle between mind and heart is something most twins experience. Your logical mind sees the complications while your heart knows something deeper is happening.

This separation is probably serving a purpose, though it doesn’t feel that way. Sometimes space is created so both twins can work on individual healing. The doubt you mentioned suggests there were inner conflicts needing attention.

Focus on nurturing yourself during this time. Your connection exists beyond the physical, so even in separation, you’re never truly apart. Trust what your heart knows while honoring what your mind is trying to teach you. :heart:

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Thanks a lot! Really!
These days i feel there’s noone around me to understand what i’m actually going through, which makes it even lonlier!

But yesterday something happend,
Two nights ago i had a mental breakdown, cried till morning, wishing him to return,
Next day, i felt less nervouse, and i was happy that i could release a bit of that energy and struggle, but
There were an application, me and him used to go there and create voicerooms and talk to random people for fun,
I opened the app, i was searching for something else, and i saw his name, live,
He was talking in a room!
I entered, he noticed my presense but acted like he didnt,
I stayed for 10 mins, listening to his voice a bit, cause i missed him a lot
Then i left, without saying anything,
And right after that, till now, i’ve been having terrible stress
I cant make it go away!
I dont wanna experience this amount of pain😢 just want this to be over

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I understand how hard it is right now for you, we all have our share of hardship in this journey, and yes it’s often lonely. There was night after night that I cry myself silly, I pray, I ask, beg, even demand that God freed me, that it’s fine for me to not feel this love, to just take away my feeling so that I don’t feel hurt anymore.

But, to reach a point of surrender, we need to feel every emotion that need to be released. We’ll experience a lot of situation that triggered us like hell until we stopped reacting, until all that chasing energy depleted by itself. We’ll stripped bare, being peeled layer by layer like an onion. I know there are a lot of theory about TF out there, to make the journey quicker, easier but actually there is no cheating around this journey. We always right in the place where we need to be.

So, that’s why, right now you’re allowed to break down. If you feel angry toward your TF or the situation, acknowledged the anger and feel the emotion, then released it. If you want to cry, a very good cry always help, do it. You could take a few hours, or days or even weeks, no deadline here.

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Wow
That was somehow releaving
Thanks for the comment
Im doing much better by the way

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Glad to hear that you’re getting better :grin:. You know, no one can’t guarantee that from now on everything would be better. Every body’s journey would be different but similar at the same time. If there is come the time you start your healing work or your spiritual journey, do it for yourself, don’t do the work because people said if you healed enough your TF will be back. This journey needs you to prioritize yourself.

It has been a year after the last conversation with my TF, and after a year of intense work, I know there is still residue of anger and feeling of unfairness toward my TF and toward the person that I deemed as a meddler, too. It will come now and then as a trigger to test my growth. Will I react with anxiety or will I respond the trigger with honesty.

And it is not something that can be reach instantly, that’s why we need to do the journey with grace and sincerity, especially for ourselves.

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Sending you warm hugs and positive vibes, @Jane833. Believe me when I say that each person in this community has been there. The sudden shifts, the changes, and silence. No reason, no conclusion, no clarity.

I have been in separation from my TF for coming to 8 months now, and even though in some aspects, it has gotten easier, in some ways, the ache feels the same. His memory hums at the back of mind constantly, even though I am not actively thinking of or chasing him. I see signs and synchronicities, I hear songs, I hear his name. This is not our first separation, but it is our longest. Like you, I feel him with me all the time. It is not something I can shake off or get over, even though I’ve tried.

I sent a friend of mine this quote recently that I felt resonates with this journey: Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation.

Silence is a gift as well, as much as it doesn’t seem like it right now. It gives you both space to reflect and focus on yourselves. I’ve spent the last 2 years on this journey, and it’s a rollercoaster ride. Some days I feel alright, then there are days I crash and completely fall apart. Leaving the light on isn’t easy, but I stand firm in my conviction. I am no longer waiting, or chasing, but allowing the universe to show me just how good it can be.

Choose yourself and do things that make you happy. Journaling has also helped me a lot. They say your TF reflects your core wounds back to you so that you can heal them, and that is what happened with me.

Take one day at a time, and allow yourself to feel whatever you may feel. Acknowledge your emotions because each one of them are valid. You matter, you are important, and you deserve love.

I hope you feel better, and if you ever need to talk. You are always welcomed to drop me a message. x

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All of us understand you, we all feel this terrible, unbearable pain that leaves us on the floor, helpless, sooner or later too. It does pass, stay strong, try not to think too much, stop your mind from being hyperactive! (easier said than done l know!!!) sending you a big hug and love​:heart::heart:

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