I have quickly searched the existing topics, but I haven’t found one about this, so sorry if it did exist. So, a thread to speak about faith and its challenges.
I am the kind of twin flame that, before, did not believe any of the things that are part the twin flame journey - supernatural stuff, the universe playing a part, tarot and all other psychic stuffs.
When I was a kid, I used to go to church every Sunday, it was mandatory in our family. But by the age 12, we were allowed to decide for ourselves, and I chose to detach from church. That was around the same time of my biggest trauma, which came from a series of events that acted like a bomb in my family, mother’s side.
From then, I considered myself “not atheist, but not into religion or any of those beliefs that are spread wildly”. Though I did believe in some kind of energy, or energies, that were at play around us, and that something bigger than us existed. I also believed my late grandfather was my spirit guide, like I could tell he was there for me, but couldn’t explain why and how I felt him there.
And that was it for my faith.
25 years later, and my whole world came tumbling down when my twin/my wife ran away in what was a very sudden decision caused by triggers after years of being a team against all odds. This put me in a very challenging journey - mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Well, you get what I mean : I embarked in the twin flame separation journey.
I came across the twin flame concept after a few months in which I had supernatural things happening, after bumping into my twin twice after I asked for signs to my granddad, and even I would try 3 therapists that could not help me at all - all came back to this ache in my soul, like a part of me was missing and it was not about all those explanations around regular breakups. I have decades of knowledge on mental health and I am a very emotionally intelligent person that had already a lot of inner work done prior to this. But nothing was really helping, like something fell off. I realised then I needed to search for the answers in spirituality.
Than this whole TF ride started for me. I decided to start by “doing some research”. Talking to psychics, reading much stuff about the concept, etc. It surprised me so much, I went very deep the rabbit hole. I even started learning tarot and found out I had a very strong intuition and my relationship with the cards is very natural, as if it was part of my previous life.
The more I would go down this road, the more everything about my life, from childhood to now, including all my previous relationships, all started to make so much more sense.
Now, after more than 1.5 years down this rabbit hole, my whole outtake on life changed. And I know you guys will understand how this is not a light statement. I could never go back to my previous comprehension of the world.
Even though I’m this far in and I have put my trust in the process and surrendered to the universe, my faith is still very challenged by doubt every day. I feel like I can’t escape this, as if my mind is too down to Earth on some days to believe I am not just gone crazy.
So I’d like to know - what helps you guys to stay in faith rather than doubt ? How is your faith doing in this twin flame journey ? Do you have tricks to share ? And, what makes you so sure about your beliefs ?
Edit : I’d like to add that, 11 years ago when we first met, we did recognise our connection instantly as something very rare, as if we were created for each other, that it felt like we knew each other’s from previous lives, etc. We were saying we were soulmates, though it was more without giving it any real spiritual meaning. But we definitely felt and acknowledged all those twin flame aspects of our connection even though we had not the right words for them.
