So, my encounter with TF was at the grocery store. He kind of just floated near me, I didn’t notice him but felt his presence behind me. I looked up at him, directly in the eyes. Nothing else existed in that moment, and it felt like a long time. I can recall fleetingly thinking that I don’t even stare at my husband like that! I walked past him, he stood very still and then out of nowhere my mind is screaming “home” and I want to hug him so bad!!
I’m in a little town and everyone knows everyone - but I didn’t know him. After 3 days of literal love sickness, I worked with my girl team & in a matter of 3 hours I knew who he was, his birthday, where he lived - the information download was intense!!! I actually felt more calm when I found out who he was.
Now … talk about opposites attract! We couldn’t get any more yin yang if we wanted to He’s a real go getter, faces fear like a madman with nothing to lose and I plan! I’m a planner!!!
Lately though, signs and syncs are happening really intensely. Before I physically saw my TF, I dreamt a dream about kissing a man and I was so In love but I was holding my husband’s hand at the same time and I was trying to shake him but he wouldn’t let go, but I kept kissing my TF!!!
The other morning, I dreamt my TF & he giggled and asked me if I wanted to kiss him and I said yes and did so - I’m still buzzing from the intensity!!!
Just now I walked into the room and the song on the radio sang “why won’t you wake up and want me” - no shit. I’m literally quaking.
At the rate syncs & signs are happening … I’m wondering if he was already awakened and I’m the DM???
I feel him … but I feel him like he’s waiting for me??
I did send him a message and then deleted it. Now he’s befriended my favourite plant lady in the next town over - unashamedly knowing that I message her … but I’m so freaked I don’t message her at all anymore
Your physical reaction and the ‘home’ feeling align with twin flame recognition. It’s a good sign and what a lot of true twins experience.
But what I notice is you might not actually be running- you’re in an initial recognition phase, experiencing the natural overwhelm that comes with soul recognition.
It’s perfectly normal. Nothing to worry about.
Running (usually) involves actively distancing after a deeper connection has been established.
The dream symbolism about holding your husband’s hand while kissing your twin flame points to the core internal conflict. This internal push-pull differs from true running energy, which emerges later as a protective response.
What you’re describing is soul recognition shock rather than running and labeling yourself as ‘runner’ this early may not serve you. Either of you. Forcing expectations onto you or them might create some blocks.
I don’t say this to try to dissuade you from your feelings or experiences. Just maybe don’t worry too much about the labeling either of you.
You might well be the DM here, but that doesn’t change with gender or who the runner/chaser is. In fact, the push/pull of a runner/chaser can revert back and forth.
So there are no rules on who the runner is or whether they are the DM/DF side of the coin. You might well the the runner, you might well be the DM. Or you could be the chaser and the DF.
These things will become clear, but (as @Pradnya suggests) I wouldn’t worry too much about the labels or terminology.
Certainly possible… has he shown any kind of spirituality to you?
There are some other runners here on the forum, and if that is what your intuition is telling you, then it might well be the case. So your job now is figuring out why you are running!
@Chris thank you for your response and also your question. Indeed I feel he is very spiritual. His lifestyle has been mostly influenced by immersing in nature, all over the world with people from all walks of life. He is very accepting, as am I. Some lessons I’m learning of late are about identifying the difference between people pleasing and truly helping others, no is a valid word & also listening, like active listening not just trying to relate while talking.
Thank you for your response I love my husband but I’m not in love & it’s been this way for some time. We have commitments and I am torn between doing the right thing by everyone else or doing the right thing for me. I’ve also come to the conclusion that not making a decision is still a decision in itself and I’m happy just being right now, without trying to control an outcome.
I am seeing feathers everywhere, I see numbers repeating all day long … at least twice a day and I have had his name repeated 3 times across 2 days and I wasn’t even thinking about him! That part made me super curious as I missed a phone call from a guy with same name, and then within 5 minutes 2 emails from different people, different time zones but had the same name as him.
I can’t shake this feeling he’s waiting for me though … but at the same time I’m living life & enjoying it.
Trust your intuition and follow your heart - whether you’re the runner or the chaser, your journey is uniquely yours, and it’s all part of the beautiful, crazy twin flame experience!!!
It seems like your soul is awakening to this profound connection, but if you’re the runner, you’re probably not fully ready to embrace it in the 3D world yet.
@Alchemical-Rose Wow! Yep, I believe you are spot on. Our 3D happened in September this year. All events are speeding so fast though. I read that some things take years but what Ive experienced & continue to undergo are really rapid! I’m good at going with the flow though, I think this is how I’m able to “just” hang on
Wow, those intense synchronicities and dreams sound so familiar! ? It does seem like you might be the runner in this dynamic, especially with your hesitation to reach out. ? I’ve experienced similar feelings of being drawn to my twin while also feeling scared to take action.
Maybe try sitting with those fears and seeing what they’re really about - often, our runner tendencies come from deeper wounds we need to heal. ? Wishing you clarity and courage on your path! ?
Sounds like you’re experiencing some intense synchronicities and dreams - maybe it’s time to face those feelings head-on instead of avoiding them, even if it’s frightening.
He’s a real go getter, faces fear like a madman with nothing to lose and I plan! I’m a planner!!!
I love my husband but I’m not in love & it’s been this way for some time. We have commitments and I am torn between doing the right thing by everyone else or doing the right thing for me. I’ve also come to the conclusion that not making a decision is still a decision in itself and I’m happy just being right now, without trying to control an outcome.