I’ve been struggling lately with some intense emotions towards my own DM. Sometimes their actions feel so hurtful, it’s hard not to see them as the “bad guy” in our journey. Sometimes I can see where they come from. They don’t want to hurt me they’re just trying to avoid hurting themselves (and me in the process).
I know they are a mirror but… why does it seem like they act so harsh sometimes?
It’s not about them being evil or misunderstood - it’s more like they’re struggling with their own inner demons and fears.
Sometimes when my DM acts harsh, I (try to) remember that they’re probably battling their own insecurities and past traumas and that’s what I’m really seeing. It’s tough (to say the least), but focusing on self-love and healing has helped me navigate those moments when their actions feel hurtful.
Then consider this possibility. Perhaps they are simply in love. Either with themselvs or with another individual(s).
Love can make us loose ourselvs and act in ways we never imagined we could act. Love can make us blind to our true wants and desires. Morals? Ethics? Values? None of them matter anymore when we are in love.
Perhaps the saying: “All’s fair in love and war.” holds more truth then we realize…
IMHO, the DM isn’t evil - they’re just scared AF of the intensity of this connection. It’s their own baggage they’re lugging around, and sometimes we get hit with the metaphorical suitcase.
Their harshness often aligns with challenging astrological transits or tarot readings that point to inner turmoil.
When my DM acts out, I’ve found it helpful to pull a few cards to gain insight into their emotional state. It helps me approach the situation with more compassion.
Try to see their actions as catalysts for your own spiritual evolution, even when it hurts.