Hi everyone, I’ll repost later - thanks!
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Hey! Thank you for sharing your story! I don’t think you look crazy at all, especially compared to me. My TF journey makes me sound like Queen Crazy 
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And that’s where we are now. I’ve had many dreams about him, crazy synchronicities. I don’t want to be the one holding the possibility or relationship anymore, tho. I have no idea what will happen. It’s hard sometimes with the energetic closeness yet the erratic 3D experiences.
I am so with you here. How you don’t want to keep holding onto hope to be together in the end, when it seems they are not, or even doing the opposite, doing everything to make it impossible to be togehter.
I also am with you on the confusion and crazy-making that comes with the difference between what you feel energetically from them, and how they behave.
Reading your story, it does indeed seem like you are in the midst of the push/pull, back and forth energy and all it brings. It took time for me to accept this, because it always felt like I was spinning my wheels, when in fact, I was always making progress. I just said it somewhere else, but the inner work of healing the self (the purpose of all this painful garbage, lol) is like getting a cork out of a bottle without a bottle opener. You can’t just pull it out (or heal) all one go, you have to wiggle it back and forth over and over, making progress each time until POP, you’ve been reborn as a healed, higher version of yourself. You just need to keep focus on wiggling out your cork, lol.
It is wonderful that he has admitted his feelings, at least. And that you are more or less still in communication. It’s so hard to “let go” and trust the process, leaving them to deal with their side alone, because we love and miss them so much. But that space you give, energetic and otherwise, is needed for them to do their work and hopefully find their way back to you a more healed version of themselves who would never do all the things his ego drove him to do before.
Big hugs to you. You’re not alone! 
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Thank you @anon99473393 - I appreciate your response! I may take it down as I’m feeling uncomfortable and am not sure why I put it out there. I may repost later 
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I totally get how uncomfortable being openly vulnerable can be. ESPECIALLY about something that easily could make you seem crazy to the muggles (non TF people ). I have that same tendency to erase posts for the exact same reason, though less so now.
Because we sound sound alike in this way, you’ve probably pushed your thoughts, feelings and needs down very far, so far it feels extremely uncomfortable to voice them because in the past, your needs were never cared for, and your feelings never validated.
But perhaps it can help to think of your thoughts, feelings, and needs as your inner child. Just a little vulnerable girl. She’s been stuffed down crying out to be heard for so long. Consider letting her out to be seen and validated, and accept all she has to say as important by letting the posts stand in the open. She deserves it.
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Hi @anon99473393, thanks for your response! It’s nice to connect-
I’m a little funny, I know. I enjoy participating here very much, and wonderful connections and advice. I vacillate between public and private. There are parts of my story which do feel private, a bit sacred, not for public consumption, if that makes sense. That’s how I felt when I took it down. But you could be right, and I’ll think about that.
Appreciate you taking the time to respond! 
@anon99473393 I did post my story under a different heading. Thanks for your support