Hello, I have spent two days reading posts on the forum and feeling a large array of emotions doing so. Ultimately a lot of crying and a lot of gratitude for the stories shared by you all. Thank you.
Our twin soul story started almost 4 years ago, March 2021. We have had many separations and many unions. Yesterday, for the first time we decided on a mutual separation, not one decided by just one of us.
I already feel the emptiness and longing burning in my soul. The underlying unconditional love for the other one is always there. We are very good at that and when union happens there is always incredible understanding for the other one’s actions, decisions (often very ego-minded) and reactions that led to separation.
He has entered ‘learning and awareness’. I didn’t think he’d be able to get to it in this life-time so I am very proud of him but it also means he now needs his space and I am fully prepared that there will be quite a shift in the human connection, possibly even a total death of the romantic one. He is not as au-fait as I am with twin soul connection although he firmly believes it is what has bound us together these last 4 years. He just doesn’t understand it. I am not sure I believe that him and I are truly meant to have a romantic connection, I feel more that I was placed romantically to get him to this place of learning and consequently lift vibration and push me along in my learning too.
It’s hard and it’s lonely. Even with all the realisations and spiritual awarenesses I may have, it does not make navigating the separation any easier. I am grateful that this forum came my way, reading everyone’s story has given me some peace and ability to work towards acceptance. Just realising I’m not alone on this strange path is very soothing. Today is day 1, I’ll go easy on myself and look forward to brighter days ahead.
And that is perhaps the hardest truth to face. In the end, we are fundamentaly alone in this journey. We are the ones who must grow and evolve, and no one else.
I believe that many who have already been on this journey for a long time, will agree that we cannot rely on our twin (or others for that matter) to be our crutch all the time. We have to learn to “fly” for ourselvs and to be self-sufficient.
And unfortunatly, at times, the only way to build this strength and fortitude is to be alone.
Is it cruel and downright painful? Of course. But staying in your comfort zone can only take you so far.
So embrace the unknown with a sense of innocence, and don’t forget that this is your story. Not your twin’s or someone else’s.
I hear you about the loneliness and pain of separation. It’s frustrating how even when you intellectually understand the twin flame journey, it doesn’t make the emotions any easier to deal with.
Hey there, I totally get where you’re coming from. It’s a wild ride, isn’t it? I’ve been through similar ups and downs with my twin, and that mutual separation hits different. Just remember, even when it feels empty, that connection is still there - it’s just evolving. Hang in there and be kind to yourself.
Um, I think maybe my DM is going through something similar? Like, I’m not sure, but it feels like he might be entering a learning phase too, and I’m kinda scared it’ll change our connection…but also hopeful? I don’t know, it’s all so confusing.
Wow, I totally relate to that bittersweet feeling of pride mixed with loneliness when your twin reaches a new level of growth - it’s like you’re cheering them on but also mourning the shift in your connection at the same time!!
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