Hey everyone, just needing to get this out of my mind.
As you might know before, I’m rather young to be in this journey, if this is a real one. I did experience all the spiritual awakening/the sense of “this is fated” “this is definitely karmic stuff working out” for all the things happened since the separation in 2022, though.
I’ll be 26 this month. Everyone around me is reaching their success stories, and yep - getting married and having kids. Undeniably this leads to thoughts of my romantic life, and my twin too. Because I knew they’re hiding a relationship before we cut all contact. Getting scared of my twin marrying someone else is normal.
Just last week I was diagnosed PTSD and schizoid; basically, very comfortable of not maintaining a social life because of a certain trauma related to a karmic in 2014 (yes, I kept being asked of this incident for years that my developing teen brain adapted to prepare for it, making me aloof. It’s even one of the first things my twin talked about when we reconnected for the 3 months in 2022. That means from age 15-18 to 23. Yes, over-explaining this in a logical approach is apparently also a sign). I should really, really start maintaining a consistent relationship.
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Sending you a lot of strength and love
I truly believe age is just a number. Different people experience different things in their lives that shape the way they see the world. Just because someone is older, doesn’t mean they have experienced more than someone younger.
It’s understandable that you’d be afraid/worried that your Twin might find and marry someone else. But believe that everything happens for a reason and there are lessons you both need to learn along your respective journeys
My Twin is married, so I understand the complication that adds to an already profound connection
If you ever need to talk or rant. Please don’t hesitate to reach out. You’re never alone x
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Trauma acts like a filter through which you cannot see reality clearly.
You’ve certainly got your work cut out for you @SowNReap. But if you choose to seek out and work together with someone in order to overcome this problem, you can make a real and genuine improvement in your life overall.
As much as we all wish we didn’t have to deal with relationships at all sometimes, they are a vital and essential part of the human experience. And comparing ourselvs to others almost never works to our advantage.
Whatever you do, don’t forget, that every moment is a new begining. The present DOES NOT have to be the same as the past. And it often isn’t, even when we think it is.
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It’s like being caught between worlds, isn’t it… I remember lying awake at night, terrified my twin would marry someone else. Your diagnosis isn’t keeping you from connection… it’s showing you exactly where your soul needs attention first before any authentic relationship twin flame or otherwise can flourish in your life.
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At 26 (2+6=8 the infinity number) , your diagnosis isn’t a setback but actually perfect divine timing , as healing those trauma patterns now will create the strongest foundation for authentic connection later whether you’re the youngest in this community or not, your soul knew exactly when to start this journey.
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Well, thanks for the wishes and sudden thread activity, everyone…? I turned 26 on last June 26th. “Golden birthday”, the Americans say. They say it’s Cancer’s Jupiter year too, freelancing as an article writer whose news blog readers love mystic topics for some reason.
(I wish for a full time job the memes do NOT apply to me!!! !!! !!!)
Funnily, my graduation(thesis defense, actually) date was 8/8/2024, triple 888.
Well, actually, while 8/8/2024 is certainly a powerful date with double 8s, it wouldn’t technically be ‘triple 888’ - that would require three instances of the number 888 itself. What you have is more like a double 8 activation date, which in numerology is still incredibly significant!
The number 8 represents material mastery, karmic balance, and infinite cycles of giving and receiving - perfect symbolism for a thesis defense where you’re both completing one cycle and beginning another. Your golden birthday falling in Cancer season during Jupiter’s benefic influence does create a lovely cosmic alignment for new beginnings in your professional life. Those readers gravitating toward mystic topics might be picking up on your natural energetic resonance.
Just me not having English as first language and not careful, but I read 2024 as 2+0+2+4 = 8, so it was a 8/8/8. Triple 8 instead
I’m sorry again for not being clear, but it’s the nature of the site visitors, not me - I’m freelancing for a newspaper site, not personal domain. I’m like, a pseudo-journalist or whatever.
The most read articles of the day were always Chinese zodiacs or any other form of astrology regardless of who the writer is → good traffic = steady income, so I often seek mystic content to transcribe and publish myself. 
This journey isn’t really about matching society’s timeline or worrying about external milestones. It’s so much more about our internal growth and aligning with our authentic selves. Being comfortable with uncertainty becomes almost a necessity, though it’s definitely not easy!
Those fears about your twin marrying someone else? I’ve been there too. I realized these worries are usually just our minds creating scenarios based on rejection fears. When I catch myself spiraling into those ‘what if’ thoughts, I try to guide myself back to the present moment.
With your diagnosis I know it feels heavy right now, but the Twin Flame path isn’t about ‘fixing’ something broken. You two are already connected at the soul level. What helped me was focusing on reducing my fear-based reactions rather than trying to force outcomes.
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I totally get what you’re going through with this quarter life crisis feeling. I’ve been there too, where it feels like everyone’s hitting these life milestones while you’re on this complicated twin flame journey. The fear about your twin possibly being with someone else is completely normal, trust me.
I’ve learned that focusing on society’s timelines only made things worse for me. Your journey isn’t about keeping up with friends’ marriages or careers it’s about your own inner growth.
I’ve noticed that when fear-based energy (from past trauma or feeling ‘behind’) takes over, it really affects how we approach our twin flame connection. When I started recognizing my fear responses, I could work on balancing them and connecting more authentically with my soul.
Our minds naturally try to control everything, especially when we’re afraid of losing our twin or being rejected. I still catch myself doing this sometimes! These are just ingrained patterns though they don’t determine how your journey will unfold. Remember that the twin flame path is spiritual at its core, not just about romantic outcomes.
What helped me most was redirecting my focus back to self-intention. When I truly understood that my twin and I share a soul connection, it became easier to release that separation anxiety. I used to try controlling every interaction and looking for signs everywhere, but that came from not trusting the process. Developing self-love actually helped balance the energy between us better than any external effort.
Everyone’s journey looks different comparing yours to others (or even to what you think a twin flame journey ‘should’ be) only creates more stress. I’ve learned to trust where I am right now, knowing I’m growing at exactly the pace I need to.
Sending you strength as you navigate this alongside your healing journey with PTSD. You’ve got this!
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As Carl Jung wisely said, ‘The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely,’
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Ughh, feeling this so hard right now. It’s raining weddings since this July and I went to “chaser energy”/yearning hard. I feel like my twin felt the same pressure of literally everyone getting married and also went to “runner energy” or whatever it is. If my twin’s getting together (or not) sooner or later I just wish the family likes their in-laws.
I got my PTSD report from testing for ADHD instead, and I’m still sure I have it - it’s just the PTSD has gone complex and is overshadowing, and social media commodified expectations… ughhh… like do I actually want to have children, what if it passes down?
When union happens in the future, I’ll be one of those guys who attracts gossip because of how ridiculous my journey is, I think.