I am grateful for this platform. Had it not been here, i would have believed that i was losing my mind. My journey has been interesting. There have been moments when doubt and fear creep in, however something has changed and I would love to hear your interpretation.
I met him on a dating chat site. We live 600 kms apart, but there was something about him that made me send the first message. We chatted for a while and met physically after a year and a half. I knew that I liked him before meeting him becasue he made me catch glimpses of his authentic self. I was familiar with the phrase twin flame, but did not really know as i do now. He said something that night and it’s something I always say to everyone…I have never heard anyone else say this before so you can imagine my surprise. The night was magical and there were so many synchronicities that night. I only see them now more clearly, but after the second meeting…he began distancing himself and then evntually told me he can’t do this and we should end communication. He reached out to me a month later and we continued as though nothing had happened. We met again and that was the last I’ve seen him. It’s been just over a year. The last time felt as though time stood still, yet he was still closed off and not letting me in. And like the previous two times, he distanced himself and we stopped communication.
I think i was in the chasing phase then, as i would still send him a message for his birthday and then a few more over the next few months, until he eventually replied and it was like magic again. Then we would stop chatting, he would block me, unblock me and chat and then tell me he’s done. This time, i felt it. It broke me, it was one of the most difficult emotions i had to go though. I knew what i needed to do, but matters of the heart are sometimes difficult. And this time when he said goodbye, its like everything unfolded before me. We weren’t exclusive, there were others and he lied to me and this triggered me a lot. A lot of revelation and healing came from this. Although i know that i hadn’t released him yet and needed aid from the Divine Source.
On the night of the full moon this month, I set intention and released my twin flame. I had written a letter to him and tore it up in the light of the snow moon. I recited affirmations, I spoke to the Source and surrendered.
I noticed looking back to that day, i have reeleased him. The previous triggers are now observed with love and understanding…
Understanding that he is on his own parh and that if we aee truly meant to be, then nothing can keep us apart. And even though we are apart in our 3D realm, i feel his energy with me in 5D. I have had doubts about our connection because I’m not sure if all this is in my head or that there is actually a strong undeniable connection there. I have chated with online psychics, even though i am clairvoyant and claircognizant myself. I ordeted a twin flame confirmation reading, and even though it says that he is, i still had doubt that it’s all in my head. But after the releasing ceremony, i know our connection is undeniable. I feel at peace when his memories cross my mind. I no longer look into his social media and have even unfollowed him. There is no jealousy anymore, no pain, not thinking I’m unworthy because he is choosing better, prettier, younger…
All i feel now is pure unconditional love. When i pray (talk to the Source), i communicate with my twin in 5D to heal himself, to find love within so that he can ascend, but i also understand that this is his own journey and he needs to walk his path. I am now focused on my self love and healing, and have noticed a lot of things manifesting for me without any effort from my side.
Sometimes doubt creeps back, and i think that maybe he isn’t my twin because in reality, he became a complete stranger to me, he had hurt my feelings. But i also know that our connection is Divinely protected. He may not realise it becasue he isnt ready and I have accepted this and surrendered myself completely to the Source.
Thank you for reading a brief summary of my journey thus far. I send you healing and light in your times of doubt, i know that it isn’t easy…I still have my nights when my heart physically hurts…
The mind is a powerful tool, choose love and light always and it makes our journey a little softer.