Hello everyone.
As you may have already noticed, we all evolve gradually. One day we come to the forum to share a new insight, then we integrate it into our lives, the perception expands, we see a bigger picture and realize we’ve shared just one step of a bigger journey.
And that’s absolutely fine. Every step we take is a legacy, a hint or a encouragement to those who will be going through their journey after us.
Any insight you have does not devalue the previous insight, even if it somehow contradicts it. Without each of these insights, we wouldn’t be where we are today, and that’s true - the past can’t just be devalued and thrown in the trash.
I honor my past, honor each step of my Twin Flame journey, with it’s hopes and pains, insights, learning, people connections, researches and so on. Some of these insights I shared here in this topic. If you decide to get into what I’m saying here, I recommend reading that thread too, especially the references to books and movies, because I’m going to mention some of these here in context.
So, yesterday, it was only because of all the steps I had gone through previously that I came to realize where my Twin Flame is.
It’s inside me.
Yeah-yeah, we’ve all read all those tales about inner union, and for a long time I have been unclear about what kind of inner unity I need to achieve if my twin is on the outside and embodied in that man. 
Now, IMHO, the whole mechanics looks different for me.
So far, my Twin Flame (allow me to refer to him as a male) wasn’t going anywhere – he was just trying to find a physical home. He is a form of higher consciousness, that descends into physical reality.
It’s funny enough, I’ve literally been looking for a physical home since I was a kid 
. I have a straight up thing about wanting my own living space because I once had it and then my parents took it away from me, leaving me homeless with a lot of problems.
But that’s not the main point right now. When I came to the age of radically rethinking my life’s perception, I realized that without the inner state of “I’m home”, there’s no way for me to receive a physical home, nor the money for one. Feel a resonance with TF’s ideas.
Here I want to refer to the 2nd Gene Key – anyone who wants to can read about it in the book – it is the key that describes the essence of the Divine Feminine, and it says that we are all looking for Home, and our Home is Unity.
What is Unity? I found the most truthful illustration of this term in the TV series – “Coherence” (2013) and “Dark Matter” (2024). Coherence is the great word for that too.
Unity is not about forcing ourselves to make friends with things that don’t resonate with us, for the sake of “unity” – it’s about being in a reality that resonates with us perfectly. And so far, I’ve only found such a reality within myself. So far.
Next.
A lot of the TF mechanics I know from the Gene Keys book. This is important knowledge for us, as long as Human Design. The era of the Sleeping Phoenix (anyone familiar with HD knows it) which is still asleep for now, will start in 2027, and then Phoenix will no longer be asleep. What that means?
I know several people in my life who were born under the so-called Sleeping Phoenix Incarnation Cross (you can calculate your Human Design chart on the web to see yours).
This does not mean that only these people are destined to find their perfect match, rather, they are the examples of what and how things will happen. They are kind of pioneers or early birds of the big evolution.
For the most part, they spend their lives searching for a partner. But there are a few Phoenix-people who I know, who have been completely transformed, and it happened after they met their right partner. It’s like they’re literally being reborn from the ashes.
The 55th Gene Key talks about the Divine Feminine consciousness that will descend intensely into physical plane after 2027. We are already feel this, huh?
The physical plane is our bodies. Here I want to refer to another series – “Travelers” (2016). Also important is the “Sense8” series. Both of these movies illustrate the descent of the higher consciousness into the human form (it may be shown a bit harsh in Travelers, but the point can be grasped).
And if there is no big problem with receiving the frequencies of the Divine Feminine – many women are now spiritually evolved… there’s still a big problem with the incarnation of the idea of the Divine Masculine.
The Feminine is primary. She directs birth and death. A Masculine develops in the direction where a Feminine points – these are ancient postulates, and you may have read about them already. First She directs, then He acts. Intelligence is required for both of them, to be able to distinguish illusions from reality.
A lot really depends on the Feminine. However! Pure Yin itself is passive AF. It’s just a light. The Divine Feminine cannot and should not run after a man asking him to become a King for her. If woman chase a man, the unaware man turns into a woman. He becomes passive, indecisive, waiting for action from the woman etc. Yin and Yang change places, and for the physical body and psyche, nothing good comes of it. (I’d like to point out that I’m examining a common heterosexual couple here).
In my case, that’s exactly what I was trying to do. Trying to push the Masculine to be Masculine, but I never became Feminine first. I’ve never reached a stage before when I’m completely flat, when there is no adoration for a man. I never went indifferent. Well, I should have. You acting nice? Okay. Acting badly? Okay. No rewards, no penalties – no matter what you do. Just a 100% accepting*, just 100% Yin. You know it’s scary. But it so powerful in the meantime.
*Acceptance here doesn’t mean stay with him – it means not correcting him or appealing to his guilt. Just let him fail and don’t waste your time tracking that.
Sooner or later, the Feminine will stop showing any reaction to the worst things that will happen in the world. She will accept, and accept, and accept… No more reaction to any violence. And that’s when the Masculine will finally wake up. The God in us will wake up.
But for now the opposite is happening – we say we hurt, but no one cares.
When I stop defending myself, without hiding the fact that I was hurt – the abuser is left alone with his guilt. If I defend myself, I give him the opportunity to call me “aggressive”. That’s the “logic” of the 21st century, so the only way how you can wake up your potential TF partner – is to show him that there’s nothing wrong with the fact that he hurts you. Just inform him about your pain, be kind, move away and left him with his sh*t alone. Don’t blame – don’t give him the opportunity to put the blame on you. Be nice and keep him away from you at the same time. It’s very confusing.
I came to the conclusion that what I was really trying to do all this time was to project my Spirit and my ideal (which really comes from a higher consciousness) onto people passing by.
And in order for the Masculine’s higher consciousness to materialize into the right human form, there is nothing I can do about it. There is no proper form. You see it is the Sacred Masculine who materializes the Sacred Feminine’s vision. And I haven’t yet met a carrier who wish to fulfill that higher ideal, who wish to build it on the 3D for me.
The one I called my Twin Flame is just a potentially interesting human that has the possibility to embody that Spirit. But this man’s consciousness, his sum of knowledge and experience may be completely unprepared for it, and then it is in no way my Twin Flame – it was just an opportunity to become one. And if the man resists, my Twin Flame is still stays with me – literally inside me. The embodiment failed. So I continue to carry the both parts inside me — Female + Male Undivided. Uncreated Universe.
And that person (John, Peter, Alex etc.) is just another person on whom I project my spirit. And if he has no will to receive and embody it, to share the same aura together, then nothing would help. Let go and move on.
In general, DF doesn’t have to look for any kind of DM outside her. She eventually loses all desire to chase outer men.
That’s why she retreats and focuses on herself – what else is there to do? 
And that’s what I’ve come to after a huge amount of mistakes. It’s both painful and liberating at the same time – I’m grateful for the path I’ve traveled, and it’s so much easier for me to know that my Twin Flame is within me than it is in a man who is about to move far away and doesn’t care about the fact that he won’t see me again. I stopped caring about that fact too, and it became possible precisely because I relieved him of the responsibility of being my DM. Which he did not agree to actually (which I did not realize before because we all still have a poor understanding of the details and mechanics of what happens to us globally).
And for your peace of mind, Feminines: it doesn’t mean that person has definitely made the right decision – perhaps he has pushed away the best chance in his life, but that is definitely not our problem.
I move on with the experience I have.
This is something that a lot of TF teachers also talk about – not everyone has an embodied twin. Many of us have a vision, a spirit, but the realization depends on two real people. An that’s the main problem.
The higher consciousness may start to rise in anyone, even within those who have been living their low life for a long time, and then they suddenly rise up like a phoenix. This is exactly what happens to each of us. The question is whether the host will be able and willing to accept that high consciousness or run away from it.
And even though the Journey starts with the DF, the initiative still has to come from the Masculine – we as Feminines can’t translate ourselves for them eternally and give them clear instructions of what to do. The Masculine must learn to decipher the mysterious Feminine’s language on their own. That’s the key. The DM should rise in love with the Universe with all her mysteries, without serious attempts to decompose her into formulas and label every aspect.
I’ll quote here again this part from the GK book:
The awakening will bring many new phenomena into the world, one of which we have always dreamed of but never yet attained — the ideal of the sacred marriage. The contemporary institution of marriage is an attempt to capture this ideal on the physical plane. However, marriages and relationships until now, even the clearest and purest, have not been able to fully embody the principle of marriage at its highest potential — the actual sharing of the same aura.
In order for the ideal of the sacred couple to exist on the physical plane there must first be a melding of awareness. This is the ‘unio mystica’ or ‘conuincto’ spoken of by the alchemists. Enlightenment or realisation has always been a state that flowers in individuals and historically, the world has never seen an enlightened couple in its truest sense. We may have seen symbolic examples, and there are certainly couples who have experienced these states together for short periods of time. However, the first stage in the breaking down of barriers between these human forms will be the healing of the yin/yang split between man and woman. The ancestral pressure between the sexes is so vast that it has thus far prevented true melding.
Note for myself. The light/feminine/awareness had not yet been divided and shared. So my twin stays inside me. There was only an attempt with that guy, but without the awareness of both, it will not happen. And actually, maybe my very attempt led to the fact that the failure was predetermined (the observer principle of quantum physics). And it’s time for me just to move forward and finally focus on myself and stop searching for him outside. Yeah, it’s weird for the ego, but it seems like the world is changing exactly that way.
You can share your thoughts and experiences too.
), so the TF journey has helped me greatly to finds ways to give MYSELF that love, and leave him to face it all or run.
And since we have both energies inside ourselves, it’s our task as individuals to balance them inside and within our closest relationships. The TF journey provides this opportunity to stop loving wars, stop blaming, stop appealing to conscience, stop boomeranging… Just heal and retreat. Save the energy.
then we are not on route with him. I won’t even stop for a second to wait for him to “realize”. There was plenty of time to wake up.
right about the challenges of reconciling inner union concepts when we perceive our twin flame as separate and external. The reality is more nuanced - while twin flames may have separate physical forms, energetically they share the same soul frequency.