I had posted a while ago that I had released my DM. Since then, I’ve been working through parts of me that still required healing. From this, I realised that my spiritual abilities was reaching new heights and I am in absolute awe and loving every moment of awakening and being conscious, feeling close to the Source and feeling the Divine within me most times.
It has been almost a year since contact, and after that it was basically him pushing me away, denying the connection that I felt so deeply and on a spiritual level. Eventually I had to make the decision…how to surrender. It has not been an easy journey for me, but it has brought me back to our souls purpose in 3D, bringing us back to unconditional love. I am truly grateful for this experience.
A few days ago, I received a message from him. To add context, he was supposed to return some of my belongings and the lst contact I had with him was telling him that I won’t be messaging him anymore, continuously requesting that he sends it back. That was my last contact. I feel that he did keep them for the moment he would need to reach out again, and that’s pretty much what had happened. He still believes that the sexual chemistry between us is rhe only connection we both feel. Apparently that’s all that he’s missed. He still says to me that he’s waiting for the right one. He told me that our sexual connection was unique and its because we’re sexual soulmates. To add to this before the contact, I most likely tapped into his energy, as I was missing him intensely, not in the way you would pine or yearn for someone, but more like I just missed his energy, his essence, him…I was an emotional wreck almost, but I was doing good. I just thought it had been a while and perhaps that was the reason, but that made no sense to me as I had been doing really well on my journey.
We chatted for hours, although he still feels that he needs to deny certain things (third parties) and maybe that’s because he does not want me to feel bad. He mentioned things which aren’t normal for someone who wants to walk away, like keeping my texts and photos, like thinking about certain things between us. I had mentioned to him that I did not want to repeat patterns with him, and he still keeps this purely physical when I know it is so much more, however him coming back has left me with a dilemma. I do not want to repeat this pattern with him and know that in order for him to evolve, I will need to walm away. But I am trying to remember that separation is simply an illusion, and its really difficult. It’s as though time did not exist once again, feeling the purity of true unconditional love within, understanding that I could not push or he’d retreat or run again. The conversation has to happen, and maybe then he can begin his healing…healing from the fear that holds him back from his true potential. Since my release ceremony, I have an alter where I offer my prayers to the Divine, and I have a photo of him with a cross and rudraksh bead on it. When I talk to Source, I ask for him to heal, I ask for him to find love within and even if it’s with someone else, it does not matter as long as it helps him open up his heart to love. I have not being talking to anyone else, and that isn’t because I’ve closed myself off, but because I know that isn’t in my path right now. I know that I’ve been communicating in the spiritual realm on his behalf, because he has still not awakened. He is very intuitive and understands the concept of twin flames, but denies our connection and basically brings it back to the physical only. We live in different towns actually, and he returns because of the physical but we’ve only seen each other a couple times so it doesn’t make any sense.
The reason for my post is just for this amazing twin flame community to keep me in their prayer, to give me the strength to speak my truth to him even if it means him walking away from me. I feel the connection is undeniable and he just cannot see it that way and pins it to something logical, like its just the physical connection that’s unique between us.
The twin flame journey is undeniable when you’re on that path. I have communicated with him many times in the spiritual realm through dreams and messages received in those dreams. I know I am connected to him, as I’m convinced that it was his energy I felt for the past few weeks. It’s going to be so difficult to walk away from him, but I know its necessary for him as well as for me. When you’ve had a taste of eternity, its difficult to walk away from it.
Loving community, please keep me in your prayers. Also to pray that he allows himself to let love in. To all those on this journey, keep pushing through, even when days seem dark, even when you feel like giving up, we all have to return home sometime…
I know that I need to sit with this, it’s only been a few days after he has started communicating, and the reason I posted so soon here was to get a feel of what other twins go through in a similar situation and their experiences.