Hi
I am Fredd. This really strange thing happened to me around 2 months ago. Where it would mean a lot for me if I could receive som feedback and insights from the community.
To give a bit of context. I met my Twin Flame around 7 years ago. I had at that time been on a spiritual journey for 6-7 years. Where I have really good teachers. So I had a lot of experience in that area when meeting her. The relationship with her was super intense with everything that is described occurs when Twin flames meet. Electric touch eye contact that is soo strong that it is almost impossible to handle etc. The relationship with her didnt last long where she is the runner and I am the chaser.
At the time when we broke up. I encountered the idea of Twin flames and it resonated with what I had experienced. But I didnt dwell into the topic. And sort of forgot about it. My personal spiritual journey was more important at that time. And I thought that I have to clear all the chaser energy for anything to happen anyway. So no need to learn more about Twin flames before that is done.
After we split. I had obsessive thoughts about her and what had happened for around 6 months. Then I quite often had thoughts about her with strong emotions for around another 6 months. After that I thought about her hardly at all. I moved city also. It wasnt that I denied or supressed anything. Sometimes I would think about her and I wouldnt push those thoughts away. And there were no strong emotions if I thought about her.
Then around 2 months ago, just before Christmas. I was driving to my winter cottage in the mountains. It is a long 9 hour drive. I was feeling quite down at that day. Since I was a bit frustrated that I couldnt fully break through spiritually. I also felt a bit sad that I didnt have a partner. Even though that is not something I have been focused on lately. At that day I had not had a thought about my Twin Flame for at least 6 months.
Around halfway into the drive. Out of nowhere it felt. It was not that some denial was lifted. It felt more like a divine intervention if anything. The universe saying. Hey, remember this. The thoughts about my Twin Flame and what had happened came back with full force. It was this immense remorse about what had happened, that it didnt work out and this extreme intense longing for her. For around 2 weeks I had these grueling heartbreak feelings and obsessive thoughts about her.
Where now 2 months after that. I think about her all the time with strong emotions connected to it. Longing etc, but it is not super painful. I have also experienced what feels like telepatic connection with her. That I can feel her emotions. And she is in my dreams maybe 2 out of 3 nights.
I feel very confused about the experience, so all type of input and feedback would mean a lot for me. But what I am most curious about is if anyone have any insights about that I for a long period of time didnt think about her at all. Then it came back so sudden and with such force?
Is it denial and supression in her that was lifted that made me start thinking about her again. Is it that I am close to breaking though spiritually where it is time that those thoughts come to the surface again. Or is it some other reason. That part of the experience is what is most confusing for me.
Any input or feedback around this would mean a lot for me.
//Fredd