Trying to explain what surrender feels like is difficult because it can be… counterintuitive. The idea that releasing your twin is the way to get them back without going too far over the line to just 'ignoring your path’.
So when I do see a relatable experience, I want to share because it might help someone understand what this really means.
Just remember that every journey is incredibly unique. Your surrender might feel differently.
I reached a huge moment of clarity the beginning of this week. I felt like I reached or elevated to some level of ascension in understanding this journey. I thanked my twin in my journaling and telepathically. That despite it being hard and painful and missing him so much and the fact that he ripped open my abandonment wound so profoundly that I have been deeply lost and depressed the past 9 months. That despite all that, him just abruptly walking out of my life with no warning that I have finally gotten to this place where I have complete understanding, unconditional love for him, thanked him for the journey and if I was going to be on it with anyone, that im glad it’s him. If I’m going to be tied to his soul for eternity, i’m glad it’s him.
And finally felt… FREE. After all these months. I truly felt like I no longer needed to worry or wonder or chase or just anything. I felt excited and ready for union but also sitting patiently and waiting. That evening and the night after though, I tossed and turned and didn’t sleep well at all. It felt like DNOTS but not my DNOTS. Like I was experiencing him go through it possibly or could feel it. Then the next few days he wasn’t really on my mind at all. I wasn’t feeling his energy and he stopped appearing in my dreams. I feel nothing now. I feel like I am no longer attached to anything. I feel like the connection completely disappeared and it’s just me inside now.
And the fact that I don’t feel my twin AT ALL anymore. Nothing. No more synchronization, no gravitational pull anymore, feelings and energies, & emotions that don’t belong to me, the constant dreams that recently stopped being silent films and now I can hear what him and I say to one another, it’s all suddenly stopped around the time I surrendered this week and gave it to the universe and sent the message to my twin and then my friend leading me to question my sanity. It’s all gone radio silent.
Moments of profound understanding can be exhilarating, but doubt often follows. This is common in the twin flame journey, where emotions fluctuate and certainty can be elusive.
The Clarity Before the Storm
Sometimes, we experience moments of deep insight on this path. It’s as if everything suddenly makes sense. You might find yourself:
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Feeling grateful for the journey, despite its challenges
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Reaching a new level of unconditional love for your twin
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Experiencing a sense of peace and freedom
These moments are valuable, but they may not last forever. Don’t be discouraged if they fade – they’re part of your growth.
When the Silence Hits
After a breakthrough, you might experience a period of silence or disconnection. This can be unsettling, especially if you’re used to feeling your twin’s energy constantly. Remember:
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Silence doesn’t mean the connection is gone
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It could be a period of individual growth for both of you
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Trust that there’s a purpose, even when you can’t feel it
Dealing with Doubt
It’s natural to question your experiences, especially when those close to you don’t understand. Here’s how to handle it:
Trusting Your Journey
Your experiences are valid, even if others can’t relate. It’s okay if your friends or family don’t understand – this journey is deeply personal.
Seeking Support
Consider connecting with others who understand the twin flame experience. Online communities or support groups can be valuable resources.
Is It All in Your Head?
The short answer? Probably not. The twin flame journey is complex and often defies logical explanation. Here’s why you’re not losing your mind:
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Spiritual experiences are subjective and deeply personal
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Growth often involves periods of confusion and clarity
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Your intuition is a powerful guide – trust it
Moving Forward
As you navigate this journey, remember:
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Surrender doesn’t mean giving up – it means accepting the process
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Periods of disconnection can lead to powerful personal growth
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Your experiences are real, even if they’re hard to explain
Stay open to the journey, trust your intuition, and know that you’re not alone in this. The twin flame path has many twists and turns, but each step is leading you where you need to be.