Oh yes, hello! Even that. I discovered almost a year ago that my sister and fellow black sheep of the family, besides myself also met her twin flame a bit before I met mine. Its crazy how our lives have always run parallel all these years. We are step btw not blood. But anyway, hers reached out after 15 months with “hi” and she got so excited and her fear based energy took over with her response so he ran again. I’ve been checking in on her every few days cause I know she understands but i’m sure shes a bit diappointed too.
Still nothing from mine. Hes so embedded in the 3D, I am convinced i’ll be those twins I hear about that are like, “i’ve been in sepeation from my twin for 30 years now…” i’m convinced that will be me. Mostly because we are both married to our soul mates and nothing can materalize between us so we communicate in the 5D but stay away from eachother in the 3D. Im healing focusing on me. Doing so much better these days. This week a bit sad. I was totally fine last Saturday, was cuddling in bed with my husband and a deep sadness came over me suddenly and I started crying. And jumped off the bed saying over and over,
“I gotta go. Something is wrong!” I had all this unsettled energy piercing through me, I couldn’t sit still . I told my husband I needed to go for a walk or a drive. He knows how I get. He doesnt understand but hes supportive the best he can be. I followed the energy for awhile while i drove. I broke contact and sent him a “are you okay?” Text. A few minutes later the energy settled and subsided so I turned around and went back home. … I havent been gravitationally pulled by the energy in a long time. I hate when it happens. Now im just sad and missing him again this week. Im so done. I want off this ride.
“I’m here. I never left.”
“I’m sorry. I needed time to sort out my life so that this time, I can be with you with nothing holding me back.”
“I know you’re afraid I’ll leave again without an explanation, but I promise this time it will be different. Let’s work towards that future we always planned to have together.”
“I now understand, and I’ve learned and matured from my past and traumas, and I am learning how to unconditionally love myself. You are my world, too, and I regret hurting both of us by my words and actions. Let’s rebuild. ‘Me, You, Us’”
(this would come with her saying she wants to rebuild our marriage and family, that she regrets how she ran away from all we built over the last decade, and that she regrets even bringing divorce on the table when she thought she was helpless and unlovable).
I’ve spent countless nights imagining my DM finally saying something that undeniably confirms what I feel in my soul, only to wake up to the same silence that’s become both my comfort and my torment. Sometimes, I think the words I long to hear exist in a parallel universe where we’ve already overcome the fears keeping us apart in this one.
Sometimes I imagine my DM saying something simple like I’m here, always have been, and it feels like a soothing balm for all the times I’ve doubted this connection. It’s not about grand gestures but those little reassurances that show us we’re not alone in this path.
That scene hits different on this journey (I literally gasped when I rewatched it years later)! The way Edward acknowledges the dangerous absurdity of their connection while still fully embracing it is EXACTLY what makes it feel so twin flameish.
I can totally relate to finding meaning in unexpected places like Twilight! That scene you shared actually got me thinking about what I’d love to hear from my DM on this journey too.
Something I’ve been working on lately is trying to ‘receive and respond’ instead of just reacting. When I can find that inner balance, the connection feels so much clearer.
For months I want to hear him say sorry to me. I want to hear him tell me that he’s wrong and he will fix everything for us. Lately, when I thought deeply about it, even right now when I write this reply, I don’t think that it is matter anymore. It’s not that we don’t need the apology. As a human being, when we feel that we’re being wronged, at least a decent apology is needed. But, as the chaser or runner, we both have our share of wrongdoings to each other.
So, I think if we truly meant to be with each other, and I keep affirm that to myself everyday, I hope that my TF will say, “I’m back, I’m going back home” with his head held high, no need some flowery word, because in that exact moment we would know if it’s a real deal.
That Twilight scene hits different after spending months in the dreaded ‘talking everyday non-boyfriend’ zone where I analyzed every text like it was ancient scripture! I’d love for my DM to just cut through all the mixed signals and say something definitive like Edward.
Um, I think maybe my DM and I are both the stupid lamb sometimes…like, we take turns being vulnerable while the other one acts all fierce and distant, you know? I’m not sure if that’s normal, but watching that Twilight scene made me tear up because, gosh, what if we could just both admit we’re scared lambs instead of pretending to be lions?
While Edward’s line is romantic, it’s worth noting that in Twilight he’s portraying the divine masculine energy of protection despite danger, not necessarily the surrender we often hope for from our DMs.
I found myself drawn to this scene repeatedly during separation phases, subconsciously seeking that moment when my DM might finally acknowledge our connection’s intensity with the same unflinching awareness.