My Twin Flame Journey: Any Advice / Insights?

This is exactly what the twin flame journey teaches us - how to process our emotions instead of suppressing them. What you did with that letter was powerful soul work.

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Wow, thats great to hear, thank you! I was in such a low place and I’ve been trying so hard to shift out of the low vibrations. Yoga definitely helps me feel so much better. I’ve been very consistent with it, which is definitely helping me feel peace and balance. However, last week I skipped one day in my yoga practice and I noticed a huge difference in my mood and energy level. I will not be skipping a day ever again.

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Thank you, @everlasting. It means so much to read this. I still have those bad days when my anxiety and overthinking drags me down this rabbit hole, but I have found it easier to bounce back now. Nothing a few tears while driving doesn’t help, right?

This journey hasn’t been easy, but up to this point, it’s the first time I’ve found some semblance of peace.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. Reading your words honestly made me smile xxx

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I felt before the letter, I was holding so much anger inside of me. It was definitely a very therapeutic way for me to heal and let go of those emotions. It is still sitting in my draft folder in my email, but those negative feelings that were dragging me down aren’t quite there anymore. I appreciate your validation :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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I really appreciate hearing your story. As you know, we share some similarities in our history.
I love to hear how you’re working with the separation, and really admire your strength in processing it. Your comment about leaving the light on is perfect. I see so much light in you - sending :heart:

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Thank you @gigigirl. You know I love our chats. :heart:

You’re very kind, but I still have those bad days that occur and break me down when I least expect it. Most of the time, I just cope with meditation and focusing on the things in my life that make me happy and whole. But those moments creep in, especially when I’m driving, when I’ll feel a heavy energy that isn’t mine (and I feel this could be me feeling him and he’s having a bad day or something) and I’m listening to our playlist, and I see the signs and synchronicities, and I break down in tears. I have days like that still. But I’d like to believe I am no longer chasing, but standing firm in my power while leaving the light on for him :heart:

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Hi dear @eunichick, I hope you know I do too. :two_hearts:

Of course, I do too. I think it’s part of the journey, at least for me.

I often think there’s a way I should be, whatever adjectives might come to mind, but really I’m just a human who feels, who stumbles, who feels peace then frustration. (this is helping me to think it through, thank you). One of my hardest lessons is letting myself feel how I feel, be who I am, think what i think, accept myself even if I’m losing it or scared or feel I’m messing it all up, or blurting or over sharing or sending a really messy email. This is so hard for me! I feel I’m supposed to be grounded and at peace and never triggered, always in zen. So I Judge myself against some phantom perfection; it’s so ingrained in me. I can be my worst critic. This whole journey is messy, beautiful, imperfect, painful and confusing. I think part of the healing for me is practicing being okay however I am (I’m nowhere near this btw).
I want to grow and work on triggers, and also love myself as I step on the banana peel, or fall into despair.

Here’s a quote I love:
“ > It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”

Theodore Roosevelt

The other day I felt so much grief and exhaustion, and I wanted him near, so much. The man I felt/knew energetically. Then I felt him near, I saw him shut the door to the bedroom, and tell others I couldn’t be disturbed. I felt protected and loved. Then I thought I’m not suppose to want or miss him. But I do.

You’re an amazing beautiful person, you share with so much compassion. Of course you will miss him, cry some days. We’re all human and thank goodness -

Sending :two_hearts::two_hearts::two_hearts:

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I feel as you feel, @gigigirl. Please don’t be embarrassed and thank you so so much for sharing. I judge myself too.

I wonder if I’m healing enough because I see so many people reuniting with their Twins with such peace and I’ll admit sometimes I get jealous because. Why can’t I even get a text message from him? Why can’t I find clarity even though I’m trying to come to terms with why he left? I meditate and practice self love, but I also fall into the space of doubt and despair. Is this journey suppose to be completely peaceful and easy? I don’t think so, but there are still days I wonder if I’m losing my mind. Less than usual now, but they happen

Try not to see it as failing, but more than we are human. You are allowed to still want him and miss him. I know I do.

I try to keep the faith every day despite the silence. Sometimes I wonder if I’m strong enough to do this, if I’m taking it one day at a time

Thank you for that beautiful quote. It’s perfect in summing up the journey

Sending you love always :heart:

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Hi @eunichick, thank you. I have days of frustration and despair. The uncertainty/confusion is really difficult for me.

I’ve learned that I can do my part, but I can’t do his. That was a big piece for me. It’s been very hard for me to accept it wasn’t a miscommunication that we could address, or communicate through, but his choice for distance.

So I don’t see reunion as a matter of failure or success. I thought that too. I see it as your unique TF path, 2 individuals, who each make choices and have individual paths toward healing.

I guess I don’t know, but I think you’re on your path with all its messiness. I love the 1 day at a time. Doubts been part of my journey.

Sending :two_hearts::two_hearts::two_hearts:

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Sending you :heart: always. I don’t think you’re chasing at all. It sounds like you’re feeling, and aware. It’s really hard. But it can shift too.

Re synchronicities, the other day I went to grab a coke here, and his name was on it (they have cokes here with names).

I think you’re a beautiful soul. Sending :two_hearts:

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Hearing you on those synchronicities. Even when I’m just watching my TV series (I’m currently rewatching The Closer), a character will randomly say his name or a character’s name will have his name as part of their last name. I haven’t yet seen his name on a Coke bottle. We have them here too, and Coke is my Achilles heel. :grimacing:

Always here to support you on your journey, as you have been to support mine. You bring me so much joy and comfort. Thank you :heart:

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:heart: thank you! I feel the same :heart:

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I hadn’t checkedin in awhile, but I’m very very happy to know you’ve reached such a state of peace and non-chasing. You’re obviously a strong and brave person to reach such a place :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: But I do know those moments always come back in, where the longing and sadness can sometimes feel overwhelmed no matter how balanced and peaceful we feel. Big hugs to you for those hard times.

You had mentioned the letter you wrote that helped you get out all those long-held feelings that were causing you pain. Would you be interested in posting it here? You mentioned how you admire my ability to spew out all my mental garbage in its raw form (you obviously word it differently, lol) and part of why I do it, is that knowing a person, anyone, reads my thoughts, gives a kind of validation I can’t get writing something privately (which I also do).

Other than that, how have you been lately? Any changes going on?

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Hey! So happy to see you back on here and that you’re moving forward in your own journey too :heart:

Wow. I don’t know if I’d post that letter I wrote here only because it’s so full of anger, and pain. Not so much that I don’t want to share, but more coz I’ve let it go since I wrote it. Also, if he ever found his way here (God knows right), I really wouldn’t want him to read it.

Aside from that letter, my situation remains the same. Like I mentioned, the only small movement I’ve seen is that he added some songs onto his playlist; it’s one that he created when we reconnected. I have a similar playlist that 80% mirrors the songs on his coz we use to send songs back and forth to each other. He added Hate Me by Blue October and Please Forgive Me by Bryan Adams. I guess I take a small comfort that he still listens to the playlists and adds songs to them

Most days I’m at peace, some days I fall to pieces. Guess that is all part of the journey right? :heart:

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That is a comfort about the playlists. To have it match so closely to something you shared, is high on my “too much to be coincidental” logic list, lol. And yeah, if you already let it go, then no need to revisit! I also worried my TF found his way here, but if he did, it’s because the Universe willed it to happen. So I’m just going to be authentic and say whatever I need to process and survive this, because I came here for me.

I’m curious to hear about any physical sensations you’ve had during all of this, like that heavy emotion feeling that comes from outside of you. Did it ever mirror something that happened in his life?

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Couldn’t agree more. If anything, if my Twin found his way here, it would prove to me that he is awakened and aware, or at least curious. But more than anything, it WOULD 10000% finally prove that all this isn’t just in my own head. LOL

I think that is the part of my journey I’m still trying to decipher. The heavy energy I feel sometimes: weight on my shoulders, aches in my heart and uncomfortable hollow sensations in my stomach. There are days when even though nothing has really “triggered” me, where I would just randomly feel melancholic. I wonder if that is me or him.

I did have a “conversation” with the Universe one day while I was driving. The signs were quite intense. His initials, numbers, songs. I said, “Only show me 717 or 177 when he is actually thinking of me. I don’t need reminders I’m always on this journey. I know and accept this now.” So these days, when I see that sequence of numbers, I know and feel that he’s somehow thought of or is reminded of me. Anyway, one random day in early June, the signs were going crazy again, and there was just a sense of…something changed. Then as I listened to that playlist of his on my way home (I listen to it every day now), I realised that he had added the song Please Forgive Me by Bryan Adams. So, even though it was a small movement, it was movement? I guess we’ll see. We have always spoken to each other through music.

Other than that. I def don’t experience the same psychological connection that you share with your Twin, @anon99473393. My dreams of him always are mostly of us walking and talking; much like a scene from Before Sunrise or Before Sunset :heart:

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@eunichick
I think it’s meaningful (the add to playlist). Listening now; wow, the lyrics

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I had a strange dream about JB a few days ago; in fact, there have been a lot of strange dreams lately. Maybe it’s because Mercury is in Retrograde.

What do dreams really mean? Are they our souls reconnecting in 5D, or are they are projection of our subconscious? Do dreams really have deeper meanings?

Would love to hear anyone’s thoughts. :heart: